“All my plans just crashed and burned. Like God was saying, ‘Whoops! Nope, you’re not going that way. I have other ideas.”
I could hear my teacher’s smile through the phone. A smile of experience. A smile that said “welcome to the life surrendered to God, sweetie.”
“I just feel like I’m walking around with a blindfold on. I have no clue where I’m going,” I said—unsure of whether to smile, cry, grit my teeth, or laugh—and plopped down on my bed.
“Sometimes we need those blindfold moments,” she replied, smile still audible, “So our trust can be increased as He leads us through unknowns.”
There’s a word that triggers my cringe reflex.
By the end of our conversation, two things blared in my mind.
One was this verse:
“The plans of the heart belong to man, but the answer of the tongue is from the Lord” (Proverbs 16:1, ESV).
Someday I’ll expound on the life event I’m referring to. But for now, the point is this: I’d spent so much time planning out my life, that by the time God stepped in with His answer, I didn’t know how to function. I’d forgotten that He had the final say, so everything turned into a big, cob-webby blur.
The second thing that resonated was unbelievable peace–even joy.
Never had I felt so relaxed in my lost-puppy state. Relaxed, because I knew God had a reason for plucking the pen and planner out of my hand. Knew that He must have a lot of goodness in store. The knowledge that He had–and always has–my best interest in mind is enough. (Romans 8:28)
Life is full of plans that may or may not happen and steps no one but God can predict. It’s like one. big. blurry. season. And the deep lack of control can be terrifying.
So how can we embrace unknowns?
These things help me:
Worship by casting your anxiety down at His feet. By resting in His grace. Worship by setting your mind on things above. Worship through singing.
If we let frustration and restlessness consume us, then blurry seasons will be quite the hike up a muddy slope.
Stomping around with with a pouty lip isn’t gonna change God’s mind. (Believe me, I’ve tried it 😉 ).
So turn your focus upward, and thank Jesus for having a purpose greater than your own. For knowing your desires better than you do. For loving you even when you’re doubting.
Search out blessings in each blurry day and thank Him for the promise of hope. (Jeremiah 29:11)
2) Rejoice in the mysteries!
Just think how horribly boring things would be if everything went exactly as we planned. There’d be no adventure in watching stories unfold. No excitement in seeing jagged pieces finally fall into place. …No reason to hold Jesus’ hand for guidance.
Go with the flow.
Foggy seasons are a great reminder that when we don’t know where to go or what to do, our Creator DOES, and He’ll navigate the way, if we’ll just ask Him to.
“‘Call on me in prayer and I will answer you. I will show you great and mysterious things which you still do not know about’ ” (Jeremiah 33;3, NET).
Baby steps. Mustered up faith. Clinging to the Word—focus on praising Him—and blurry seasons can be the most delightful kind.